Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Fat Girl Sins: Sloth

I've been thinking lately about sins. We have the seven deadly sins but in my eyes there are many other sins that we perform daily that we need to change in ourselves. I can admit that I have a little bit of all the sins and then some, so I'm going to talk about Sloth.
Last week I finished the semester and I have two weeks until I go back. I barely work, thanks to this lovely economy, and my chores have been done, mostly. Today, I spent my whole day being lazy. I woke up at 1 which I should stop because I need to get back to waking up at 10 or 11 because I felt better during the day when keeping to that schedule. Also I have times of insomnia and that makes things harder for me. In order to feel better during the day I get in bed about 11 or 12 and wake up at 10 or 11 but the past few days I haven't kept that schedule.
Then all day, literally all day except for bathroom and food breaks and taking the dog out, I sat on my sofa and played The Sims 2. Oh, there was one break when I turned on some music and poled my heart for about two songs. And it was a very sad day.
This is why I'm the size I am. I'm lazy. I'm trying to get out of this laziness that I have but it's hard. Like anything a over weight person tries, it's hard at first. But just because doesn't make it an excuse but we still live by that. When things get too hard, we stop. I'm not saying that every person that's overweight is because they are lazy but laziness does happen in many people that have weight problems.
I want to go out there everyday and walk my dog around the blog three times and a half times, 3 miles like I did when I was going to the gym. But I'm lazy. I don't want to, or I'll start and stop. I'm starting to see a challenge in my future. They say do something for thirty days to develop something new.
When I'm productive, I feel amazing and feel like my day was worth living. When I'm lazy, even for one day, I feel like shit. I don't want to risk developing an addiction to something but how can I think about that when I don't even get up to start?
I say a lot, I just don't want to do it. Mind over matter, please kick my ass.


  1. Wow good post. I know what you mean. I've lost 120 pounds over the past 2 years and now I've plateaued because of one word:laziness. It took me getting pregnant (pregnancy=morning sickness=near constant vomiting+food aversion) in order to lose the last 15 pounds to be less than what I weighed when I got pregnant with my oldest daughter. I know exactly what you mean, seeing my failure to follow thru with what I start kills any motivation I have to start...you're beautiful Em!! Don't allow your sloth to negate the strides you've made to be a beautiful plus sized sexy ass pole dancer!!!

  2. :) Thank you. Sloth is my enemy and I just want to beat it up. Lol.

  3. Well beat it up by kicking its ass!! Literally, find something physical that draws you as much as pole dancing and you will find that same passion to motivate you to keep moving!!!